Friday, February 27, 2009

knocked sideways

it's so strange. there are a lot of songs for it.

i'm actually to the point where i dont' care about the distractions, about being knocked sideways and not really knowing what hit me. actually, i've moved beyond that point. now i don't mind it, and won't deny it, but i want to keep going, keep growing, keep moving forward and not sitting here thinking about it and talking about it.

i want so much to change and so much to stay the same. i want it to come, and i want it to stay away for a while so i can do more of the same thinking that is driving me crazy and taking me in circles.

it's all assumption too. that is the most frustrating thing.

Thursday, February 26, 2009


I was thinking about the fact that my old roommate comes to see me and how I'm never here when she stops by. That fact makes me very sad. I want to be in my room for longer than an hour at a time.

I had four meetings today.

Three classes.

Two meals.

One post.